Why Are You Here, Brianna JeanĪt a music video party in The Hills, our two broken souls find each other and begin on a destructive path towards finding the pleasures in life and destroying each other in the process. If they actually took the time to listen to the music, they’d hear, see, feel that I was fucking drowning. Judah is drowning and there is no one there to stop him, to show him how to live. He pours his life and emotion into his songs, his lyrics incredibly raw and painful and true. As a successful rap artist, he lives the “high life” with parties, sex, drugs and alcohol. Judah Colt is something else entirely, he’s also broken and so alone yet surrounded by fans, friends and just about anyone who loves to party. After a very close call, Phoenix is saved by a song, by lyrics that sound just as pained and broken as she feels, and as if the song spoke to her directly – she decides to try to live. She was that girl who was slowly sending herself into an early grave but she just didn’t care.

She has been as numb as numb can be, taking every drug offered, sleeping with everyone in every which way possible. Phoenix Royal has spent the last four years in NYC at college, trying to feel nothing. Our MC’s as you can tell from the synopsis are Phoenix and Judah, both very broken due to childhood trauma, and they are both in very different worlds just trying to stay afloat. Trigger Warning: this book contains potential triggers for you readers, including but not limited to drug abuse, emotional trauma, suicide, mental health and all things naughty. I’ve got to go in with the trigger warning straight off, I know I’ve been doing a lot of these recently but that’s just where my head is at the moment. ~ don’t tell me to stop being dramatic, I hear your judgement ~

I mean, I am ready but like, my heart is in shredded pieces on the floor. Urgh, I am so not ready to review this book.

You’re the only thing that quiets the noise.

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